Life, Living, Depression And Why I’m Still Here


I should be dead now. I’ve been close. My life could have ended several times over the past forty years or so, a victim of depression, the mental illness problem that society constantly denies. I’ve been picked up out of the gutter by Ambulance officers having a massive asthma attack while stoned off my face on a combination of booze, pills and grass. I’ve imagined jumping off a balcony, I’ve thought of driving into a sandstone cliff, I’ve looked at a pile of pills.

Most people realise that suicide is the largest killer of young men under 25. Not many people know that suicide becomes a larger and larger killer the older you are – when measured as deaths per thousand of the population suicide is a bigger problem in older men, it’s just that other causes of death outrank it so we only hear about the young, where it stands out.

I had my first bout of depression when I was in high school though at the time I didn’t realise it was depression and nobody else did either. My mum realised I was not in a good place one day when she was driving me to school. I said:

I don't believe this is Wednesday morning, it feels like Monday morning.

It must have been the way I said it or something because she asked:

Why? What does Monday morning feel like?
Monday mornings I want to be dead.
Oh, that doesn't sound good.
I guess not.

Mum thought that this feeling was due to me “not fitting in” at school. Not fitting in was actually the three years of constant, savage bullying I underwent at Killara High. Killara High is a general public high school in a fairly affluent upper middle class section of Sydney. At the time it had a fairly good academic reputation and was certainly considered one of the best general public high schools in NSW (as distinct from selective public high schools like North Sydney Boys where my friend Robin was bullied).

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Canon’s Xmas Collection


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Just a quick post to let you know that Canon have released their Christmas papercraft collection.

They always have a great range of papercraft from easy to challenging. If you want easy then there are some Santa tree ornaments or if you want a challenge then there is the Dancing Santa mechanical toy.

Well worth a visit to grab a few models and other ideas. Remember to get them now before Canon remove them for something else.

A Truly Satisfying Meal


The table.

The table.

Today’s Daily Prompt asks us to “Describe the most satisfying meal you’ve ever eaten in glorious detail”.

I’ve had some truly satisfying meals. Defining the most satisfying is difficult. Should I choose one where a hard earned hunger made it satisfying, perhaps one that was cooked at home with love and shared with friends, perhaps the most glorious restaurant meal?

The other problem I have is my poor memory would be hard-pressed to provide “glorious detail” on far too many of the great meals I have eaten.

So I’m going to tell of a meal that I do remember quite a few details from that was satisfying on many levels.

A few years ago I moved to Newcastle and my second year there I was living with Sonia and Blaze, her son, with my daughter Jessica living nearby with her mother.

As Christmas got close I decided to have a big dinner with the big roast ham that my father had always cooked with all the trimmings.

Preparations started a couple of weeks before when I started making some papercraft models to decorate the table. There was a house, a Xmas tree, some elves, reindeer and Santa all to be made before the day.

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Christmas Papercraft


English: Christmas postcard picture with Santa...

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I’m getting a bunch of visitors looking for Xmas pop up cards so I thought I’d put together a list of good sites for Xmas papercraft for those visitors. One tip for you all, download models you are even vaguely interested in as good papercraft sites often disappear with frightening speed.

Some nice pop up cards from Martha Stewart: Glittered Pop-Up Christmas Cards

Creative Pop Up Cards have some nice examples: Christmas Pop Up Cards

Paper Models – The Christmas Kit — A piece of software to create Xmas papercraft you can use on an Apple IIgs emulator or just download the blank templates.

Some good sites for Xmas gift tags.

Christmas Gift Name Tags
Free Christmas Gifts Tags for Collectors
Disney Gift Tags

Canon have a wide selection of Xmas papercraft models including decorations, an Advent calendar and even some masks. They have models for all skill levels. Christmas Paper Craft Canon CREATIVE PARK. They often retire models from this site so make sure to grab the ones you might like now, even if you don’t build them this Xmas.

Some nice printable gift boxes. Printable Favor Boxes and Seals

All about you has a huge collection of Xmas papercraft ideas.
175+ Christmas craft ideas

Some more courtesy of Disney: Winter | Spoonful.com

Christmas pixel popup cards | Mini-eco


Xmas pop up card

Nice pop up cards. These should be easy for you to make, just print the template onto coloured cardstock.

Christmas pixel popup cards | Mini-eco.

I’ve posted a good list of Xmas papercraft sites including a few more spots for pop up cards you might like.

Xmas Foldable.Me Models


Xmas Foldable.Me

If, like me, you like papercraft you may have come across cubeecraft, a site that offers cute little papercraft figurines that are easily cut out and created.

Not long ago that idea spawned Foldable.Me, a company that allows you to design your own papercraft figurine in your web browser and then order a printed and precut version.

Now they are having a Xmas sale and adding Santa suits to the clothes choices. Cute.

Go check it out.

I’ve posted a good list of Xmas papercraft sites including a few more spots for pop up cards you might like.